On August 3, 2007 my Papa, Kenneth Jacobs passed away. I thought my world would never get any darker, but things began to look up. I got into college, I started going for nursing, my mom was happy. And then the ultimate bomb was dropped on me, my best friend, my go-to, my Nana was diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer that was spreading in January of 2012. They thought there was a possibility that they would stop the spreading and keep her around for a while, she would just have to work with the doctors and fight very hard with the treatment, but it was not a success story. I came home every weekend from college to sit by her bedside in the nursing home and hold her hand. Just to watch to her breath, although it was rough, it was such a beautiful thing to see her breath. I would sit there for hours, not make any other plans, just to sit there and cry and not leave her side. There were many close encounters with Heaven during her time in the manor, but her final call home was June 19th, 2012. I was in Big Rapids, at school only a few days away from my finals. When I got the phone call from my mom I could feel my heart stop beating, and it sink to my toes. I thought it was unreal, that it was all just a nightmare, but the next day when I finally made it home, it was all a real living nightmare. She was gone, without me saying good-bye. I didn't know what to do. She was my everything, she was my best friend, she told me the truth even when I didn't want to hear it, she was my biggest supporter, she kept me level headed, and poof it was all gone. In a matter of 5 years, my two best friends and my only set of blood grandparents, gone :( I thought the tears would never end.
Every time I look at that picture I smile, because after I finally stopped crying I realized no matter how much I want them to come back, that is very unrealistic. But it was an euphony one day, that they will always be with me, watching over every thing I do (I know how cliche is that right?) But it's beyond true and helps me get through everyday. I love them both with everything I have, and I am going to make them both so proud, in Heaven!
